I don't drive stick-I don't think I remember how to anymore but I do know if I shifted like from gear 1 straight to 3 or something, it wouldn't be good for the car. And after a week holiday and lots of sleeping straight to waking up damn early and working my butt off is obviously a shock to my body - I feel more tired these days than ever. Maybe because it's fasting month too and the unpredictable weather combined. Regardless, my system is still getting used to the sudden change.
The exam is next week, I hope my kids do well. If they did, then I'll have some sort of benchmark to live up to for next year, which is in my opinion a good thing. I might not be around long enough to be there with my kids for their exam: exam will be in September (usually it is in September) and I might be leaving, if everything goes well, early or mid august. Hence the pressure to make sure the next batch of kids will be ready by the time I have to leave them to pursue dreams of my own.
I have been working and teaching for almost 2 years now. And working life has made me realised one thing that I never wanted to admit: I have been and always will be a loner. Gruffy said that it's because I chose to be one because I just prefer it that way rather than people isolating me or something like that. Regardless, I now admit I am one. I do like working with people and sometimes go out with friends to catch up but that's about it. I don't really have a closeknit group of friends like most people do; this is either because I am easily forgettable and haven't made that much of an impact in anyone's life or simply cos I am a jerk. I'd prefer the first :P I have few friends I like to hang out with when I am back in KL but that's about it.
I guess I am little weird - people always say that artsy people have eclectic kind of social behaviour and ways they relate to people. Now I am not artsy or anything like that. Not in the common way anyway. But I do have different worlds I relate to when I write my books or even when I think. And I guess I am sometimes (or most of the times) too sensitive for my own good. Scared of getting hurt or offended, I just shut myself up from people and be on my own. I am not sure if it's healthy or not the way I act - but I am happy.
Life is about shifting gears every now and then, at least to me-whether it's sudden or expected, well you rarely have controls of what life throws at you. Waking up before the roosters do and choosing not to have much social life aren't much at all. I guess shifting gears in a lot of ways help to reshape my focus on things that really matter. I love my friends, but right at this moment my focus is my kids and it is my utmost responsibility to make sure they leave primary years with good grammar and sound knowledge of the language. I am also a fiancee who needs to learn my ways through being a good wife. Though my future husband isn't one who dominates control over my life, being there for him is what I love and also my responsibility.
And I guess right at this moment, my gear would stay at "kids and Gruffy" for a long while :)
The exam is next week, I hope my kids do well. If they did, then I'll have some sort of benchmark to live up to for next year, which is in my opinion a good thing. I might not be around long enough to be there with my kids for their exam: exam will be in September (usually it is in September) and I might be leaving, if everything goes well, early or mid august. Hence the pressure to make sure the next batch of kids will be ready by the time I have to leave them to pursue dreams of my own.
I have been working and teaching for almost 2 years now. And working life has made me realised one thing that I never wanted to admit: I have been and always will be a loner. Gruffy said that it's because I chose to be one because I just prefer it that way rather than people isolating me or something like that. Regardless, I now admit I am one. I do like working with people and sometimes go out with friends to catch up but that's about it. I don't really have a closeknit group of friends like most people do; this is either because I am easily forgettable and haven't made that much of an impact in anyone's life or simply cos I am a jerk. I'd prefer the first :P I have few friends I like to hang out with when I am back in KL but that's about it.
I guess I am little weird - people always say that artsy people have eclectic kind of social behaviour and ways they relate to people. Now I am not artsy or anything like that. Not in the common way anyway. But I do have different worlds I relate to when I write my books or even when I think. And I guess I am sometimes (or most of the times) too sensitive for my own good. Scared of getting hurt or offended, I just shut myself up from people and be on my own. I am not sure if it's healthy or not the way I act - but I am happy.
Life is about shifting gears every now and then, at least to me-whether it's sudden or expected, well you rarely have controls of what life throws at you. Waking up before the roosters do and choosing not to have much social life aren't much at all. I guess shifting gears in a lot of ways help to reshape my focus on things that really matter. I love my friends, but right at this moment my focus is my kids and it is my utmost responsibility to make sure they leave primary years with good grammar and sound knowledge of the language. I am also a fiancee who needs to learn my ways through being a good wife. Though my future husband isn't one who dominates control over my life, being there for him is what I love and also my responsibility.
And I guess right at this moment, my gear would stay at "kids and Gruffy" for a long while :)
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